I had to call my husband to come get the car keys this morning. We bought the car on October 1st. Three days later the computer system shut down. It had to be replaced. That took a couple of weeks. We got it back for a week before the motor melted. It’s a long story and it’s been in the shop for a long time. We finally got the car back yesterday, purring like a kitten. This morning the heater didn’t work. The heater. We have replaced the computer. We have replaced the motor. It’s the broken heater that I’m not handling well.

It’s not the big things that crack me, it’s the little things. That seems to be a pattern with life. I weather the storm but fall in the breeze. Is it because I spend all of my energy fighting a big war and I have nothing left for a little battle? I think it’s because I spend all of MY energy fighting a war that’s not mine to fight alone. I don’t know how many times I need this lesson. I obviously haven’t learned it yet. God is big during the big problems, and He’s big during the small ones. But it’s not until the small one sends me over the edge that I desperately turn it over to Him.

I don’t know if this car problem is a battle or another war but I know what I’m going to do about it. Pray. That’s right, I’m praying about a car. It seems silly to me but it really seems stupid not to. If my spirit is troubled because of a car, then my spirit isn’t right and I need to pray. I need to trust that God cares and I need to be a testimony that I believe that. Praying doesn’t change God, it may not fix the car the way I want, but it will change me. My prayer is that God be glorified and allows me to be a vehicle for His glory. 

I’m thankful for a God that fights for me whether the battle is big or small. I’m thankful for a God that fights for my spirit. I’m thankful for the perspective that spiritual victory brings renewal to me and glory to God.

“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.”

Psalm 51:10

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