YESTERDAY I CRIED

Yesterday I cried. Not constantly, just several times throughout the whole day. The kind of cry where the tears come and I can’t stop them but I do. I didn’t reach the ugly cry. My eyes weren’t puffy and purple and burning. I wiped just enough tears off my cheeks to smooth out my makeup … Continue reading YESTERDAY I CRIED

EXIT

When you see an exit sign, it indicates a way out. But do we ever think about it as a way in? After all, there are two sides of an exit. When you push that door open, you enter something else. Maybe another room or a hallway lined with doors of other possibilities. Often it … Continue reading EXIT

THE VESSEL

This morning I was on the phone with a friend while she was shopping at WalMart. I don’t go grocery shopping when we AREN’T in a national crisis that requires emergency storehouses for toilet paper. I’m certainly avoiding it now! I’ve looked through my fridge and cabinets and assessed - It won’t be comfortable but … Continue reading THE VESSEL

THE RED ZONE

The last twenty yards, the distance that brings victory within your grasp but still out of reach… the red zone.  Wondering why I haven’t posted about the clinical trial in awhile? Because it’s BORING!    We have been knee-deep in a wonderfully welcome routine rut. We started the year with what was probably my best and … Continue reading THE RED ZONE

IT’S NOT JUST BLACK AND WHITE

My last few years of high school and first few years of college were seamed with a global explosion of technology that boldly brought the elusive computer into homes and classrooms. The desktop. It was a clumsy combo of a monochrome display TV, with a typewriter that didn't have paper, and a great big hot … Continue reading IT’S NOT JUST BLACK AND WHITE

MYSTERY VICTORY

I'm in a very bad mood because things didn't go exactly, EXACTLY, the way I wanted them to go today.  I'm not generally an angry person at all. If you've known me for more than a couple of weeks then you've likely taken a jab at me or joined me in a laugh at my … Continue reading MYSTERY VICTORY

FAMILY, FRIENDS, FAITH

(Our peanut allergy research journey. December 2nd) Today was a big day...BIG. I looked forward to this day for months. Our last updose. The target was 300mg of peanut powder; the equivalent of one peanut. With no reaction to today's dose, we would officially be in "maintenance". We would continue to dose 300mg indefinitely to … Continue reading FAMILY, FRIENDS, FAITH

PASSIONATELY THANKFUL

This year I decided to document my days in a passion planner. It's a calendar, planner, listmaker, reflection journal. I got it because of the clinical trial for Coleman's peanut allergy. Things were happening FAST and BIG, and sometimes slow and small. Years from now, when this research is reality, I want a place to … Continue reading PASSIONATELY THANKFUL