ZOOM IN ON A GRIN

This is how I’ve seen his face for the past three weeks: a screen between us. But today I saw THIS! A smile. A genuine, eye-sparkling, teeth showing, leaning in smile! You know what he was smiling at? Not another YouTube video. Not a win on a video game. Not even a friend’s message on … Continue reading ZOOM IN ON A GRIN

THE RED ZONE

The last twenty yards, the distance that brings victory within your grasp but still out of reach… the red zone.  Wondering why I haven’t posted about the clinical trial in awhile? Because it’s BORING!    We have been knee-deep in a wonderfully welcome routine rut. We started the year with what was probably my best and … Continue reading THE RED ZONE

IT’S NOT JUST BLACK AND WHITE

My last few years of high school and first few years of college were seamed with a global explosion of technology that boldly brought the elusive computer into homes and classrooms. The desktop. It was a clumsy combo of a monochrome display TV, with a typewriter that didn't have paper, and a great big hot … Continue reading IT’S NOT JUST BLACK AND WHITE

FAMILY, FRIENDS, FAITH

(Our peanut allergy research journey. December 2nd) Today was a big day...BIG. I looked forward to this day for months. Our last updose. The target was 300mg of peanut powder; the equivalent of one peanut. With no reaction to today's dose, we would officially be in "maintenance". We would continue to dose 300mg indefinitely to … Continue reading FAMILY, FRIENDS, FAITH

FREE REFILLS

My mother often describes her childhood as "growing up in a restaurant." The Midway Cafe  divided the East from the West on the main street of Coleraine, Minnesota. It was sandwiched between narrow family businesses that had apartments at the top of very steep staircases. The shoe store had three aisles of shoe boxes stacked … Continue reading FREE REFILLS

I’M SCARED TO TAKE A SHOWER

Our peanut allergy research journey. November 19th Tonight has been a marathon of sprints. He finished football practice at 5:30.He was starving but he needed a shower. He also needed to take his dose of peanut powder. He can't dose until one hour after he showers.  He can't sleep for two hours after he doses.  … Continue reading I’M SCARED TO TAKE A SHOWER

PUNCTURED PACKAGES

Last night, I heard the words that I knew would eventually come, "I'm getting tired of this." I figured he would. Eating chocolate pudding mixed with pasty powder for 127 days in a row would make me gag. But the words didn't come out of his mouth, they came out of mine. It wasn't really … Continue reading PUNCTURED PACKAGES